Life is Bliss*

So I don’t like systems .. I hate all the non written rules of dating. I hate the don’t text back right away rule. The next day I have to pretend I can’t remember anything rule. The nothing that happens matters or is rooted in anything rule. Etc. I don’t like that things that are so simple at night get turned around as soon as the sun comes up. I am a tell it like it is type of person. I don’t like playing games. If I like u I like u there is no of or mSybe no teasing or trials .. It’s just there. I don’t like these societal rules they limit ideas and feelings. They are boxed in. In that system there is a cap on where a relationship can grow. Call me old fashioned and unconventional but I refuse to conform to moderen days retarded system. I refuse to accept the this meant nothing day after confrontation. I will not take that action. Because in all honesty I don’t regret it. I never have. What happended happended. And I truly believe that if it wasn’t for screwed up society it could be more but I really don’t care if it does. All in all the point I’m trying to make is this. All night the girls tried to convince me to talk to lee about the previous night. I didn’t want to. I feel like talking to him is regretting and trying to pretend it didn’t happen. I’m not going to lie and say I was so drunk I can’t remember because I do remember and I don’t get that drunk. I don’t see the reason to talk. What is it going to change. What’s it going to do. It’s not going to make anything less Akw. It’s not going to make everything disappear. It’s not “stomping out” the “situation”. I wish I could articulate my view better but Ifeel like this path is wrong. And it just leads to a very ignorate society.

Went to delft! It was the cutest little town ever. Climbed the large bell tower. 400 steps later I had the best view of the city. It was beautiful! Had lunch, most amazing mozzarella and tomato sandwich and tomato soup! And of course beer! Then went to the cities central market. Found lots of gifts! Walked the cities little canals. Had dinner in the main square. Beer and apple pie! So good! Loved it so much! Best day yet!

You forget to check tumblr because suddenly the real world is amazing and beautiful

… Need I say more…

Going to the international criminal court today!!! Love it here.. Lots of coffee wine and beer!!!

So we said goodbye. We tied up all our lost and a-strayed ends. We patched our relationship back together. I know you care. For some reason I never doubted that you did. But today I realized that There is still something there. There always will be. You and I have this thing that is there no matter what. When everything books down all that’s left is us. I still love you. You know that. Yeah I’m leaving. And I plan on not letting anything hold me back. Especially you. But you know that. You know I love to travel. I love adventure and to live. But you also know I will always come back to you. Because in the end, it’s always you. So goodbye for now. See you in a few weeks. I will rerun our goodbye in my head for the next few hours and move on to my adventure. I’m happy we are ok. I’m happy My shirt smells like you. I’m happy.

leaving today for the most amazing place ever… EUROPE!! gone for about 3 weeks. traveling from the Netherlands to France to a short trip to Germany! Can not wait! love you all! miss you already! xoxox wish me luck!

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